The Projection of Ham

An amicable fellow by nature j, Ham became darkly emotional m during celebration j of the escape  from Nod m and its sucking j  waters m. He had an overriding need to distance himself j from the memory of those who had perished m.

Gematria 48   jm:
The flood and the losses it brought m had depressed him j, and he was disturbed primarily because he had lost m so many friends j. He hoped that he would survive their loss. If only he could just forget m and start looking ahead again j!

Ordinal  21   ak   >   12   by   >   3   g:
Unfortunately, i it was becoming increasingly apparent that it was the overthrow of expectations k that had so angered him a, causing him to lose interest y in personal b betterment g in a theoretically better world.

Targum: His outlook had jailed him j within a sense of betrayal m. It was disappointing that he had labored so long and so hard j, only to be so inconvenienced with loss m!

 He would have to start all over again. And then! To be expected to slave even harder to get back to where you, once, had been j?!

An irresponsible m man, Ham’s imagination j was killing him m.